An Offer You Can and Will Refuse

“Only a fool refuses a woman who offers herself” Inuyasha; so what is a woman who rejects a man who offers himself? I guess it starts with what I’m offering and while I do offer all that I am, I’m afraid that’s not much.

I have never have any woman offer herself to me, mind, body, soul, or anything else that she may possess, which I have built up in my head as being everything. There was this girl I knew back in high school and I never considered her girlfriend material but what if she had wanted to be with me. I suppose it’s only fair nowadays considering what I am willing to give; what would you call a woman who rejects me… Chrissy, Susan, or whatever her name happens to be.

What I want to give is love, to be in love “unconditionally and irrevocably” as Bella put it; scary isn’t it that no one has ever loved me but I can think about being with some girl forever. I would offer my words and yes I do but I have wasted so many in my rejection that I wonder who even owns the words anymore. There was even a time I said “I can’t live without you” and that’s true enough; who could ever fall in love with a dead man… ha Trinity maybe.

Don’t feel bad for rejecting me like all the others I mean we are talking about catching a “Grenade” right? For the longest time I have believed that I am not worthy of love, don’t take this as a lack of confidence, it’s just me being honest.

So I can’t have love, I suppose I’ll be the typical guy and ask you simply for your body; yeah you just threw up a little bit right?

I could send you some pictures but what good what that do, other than the whole vomiting thing. Most of the time I don’t even know what I look like but when I do dare to look in the mirror my body isn’t much of anything. Did I mention that I’m also a virgin; twenty-six years old, still a virgin and still alive or at the very least existing.

I can’t offer you the night of your life and I must admit I have offer thought if I had the funds… but I could never even buy a woman; yes I know I watch a lot of movies. What about the fucking; obviously if you’re here you know my mind has been warped beyond repair, so the things I would do to you?

I don’t have anything worth the price of a princess, an angel, a goddess, or “Just Another” girl, as if I had a first one. I still think someone there has to be so humiliating video of me making it’s way across the internet and yet I want some girl that would be willing to make a sex tape. “If Only For One Night” to not be alone, to at the very least imagine what it’s like to be in love, and for once to be happy.

Sounds like I’m asking for everything and offering nothing I know, that’s why it’s an offer you can and will refuse but here I am hoping you won’t.