Just Undiscovered: Objection to Affection

Saturday, January 28, 2012

Objection to Affection

Only a fool refuses a woman who offers herself… or something to that effect, I heard it on Inuyasha once; are you offering yourself? I know this is suppose to be more about me today and what I am offering but the one thing I want to offer I’m not even sure I have to give anymore.

I once thought I would give anything for even your simplest touch and over the past few weeks to put it ever so simply, I like money. Maybe I’m just so much more shallow than I ever realize, I’m not perfect but the girl I give myself too, the girl that I want to give herself to me, hell perfection was so easy to find once. If anything it could be my own cowardice, is this really about me not getting on the Virgin Diaries, maybe I’m just being a boy, it could be that I can’t make you fell how I feel… rejection.

Since when have I given a damn about this shell, have you ever wanted the man inside or the monster, if anything let us just say the real me. I can’t sit here and say I am any different but of course I have never had the chance but for some reason I believed “I’m Gonna Make It” and I just trusted that you would want to come with me. This is what I offer, my love and as I have learned far too often this is just not enough… even if you were the one to give such a gift to me but then again how would I know.

This is the trial, this is what I’m guiltily of, that I want to love you and the fact that you and everyone else thinks this is my sin and what do I deserve for it? I want to be with you, I want to love you but really what can I offer us, because the moment that such a thing I dare dream becomes possible… Objection to Affection.

~Objection to Affection~

Objection to affection, to love
How can this be?
When all I have been dreaming of
Is you and me
Was blind and now I see
And yet upon detection
I’m guilty
Objection to affection

Maybe it’s not enough

The two of us being
Do I need more than your touch?
My sweetest dream
Or just some fling
Perhaps I need correction
Wanting is the thing
Objection to affection

So much is too much

This heartbeat
A dream of us
Such a beautiful queen
Would be so sweet
Love beckons
Yet I want to be free
Objection to affection

Princess, angel, and deity

By body, heart, and mind, elected
I’d give my soul if only we…
“Objection to Affection”